Hodgepodge

Right now I’m just experiencing these feelings that I thought I wouldn’t experience in a long time. I figured I would be alone for while when it came to my love life, just having meaningless flings here and there because I knew that no one who sparked my interest would even want a relationship. The whole “I like you but I don’t want to date you” kinda thing. But this guy I’ve met has completely surprised me and I’m fighting so hard to keep these feelings of attachment at bay. I still think it’s too soon to believe in anything serious, but wow, a guy has never spoke to me the way he does. He’s so genuine and somehow knew I loved scary movies without me telling him, what the heck? But I’m scared to get attached because I’m so used to people leaving. I’m so used to caring about people way more than they care about me, which I’m sure at most times is really not much at all. He asks me what I’m thinking when he catches me staring into the distance and this is all that I’m thinking, but it’s hard for me to tell him because I don’t want him to see me cry.

(P.S. He’s a Capricorn though and I’m a Scorpio and Capricorn is one of my best matches so I just thought that was super neat and wanted to share!)